ow ow ow ow

i hurt my tongue the other day so ive been annoying people with that 'sluuuurp' sound at work :P

sigh well this week has been a nice pleasant one. Ive been texting "L " like crazy just how we used to back when i was at school, i just really well it really makes me feel like Wow something happened up there and i cant let go? and i know he feels the same way. its cute because we have sleepy talk and next t hing you know its morning time and im wondering 'did i dream that!?' but we did talk on the phone yesterday after work for a good..2 hours? he claimed i was at some party but it ended up me being inside the stupid metro bus. PFT yes me in a party!?? suuuuuuuuuuure ;)

NOW the real deal is this Monday coming up ;) oh yeaaaaaaah

 

today..

today was a good day i suppose well overall it was decent. Lauren and I have been connecting more and more everyday and i like that, just because she is the least female coordinator i have EVER talked to, everytime we work together....we seem to do a double team kind of thing. Oh CRAP! i forgot to lock the refrigeratorrrrrrrrrr :(

i also tried to 'tried' to talk to Joey about things, i think im holding back on thoughts and feelings more than ever and i hate that. i wish i could just say everything but what ends up happening is him saying 'whatever' geez.....louize..

anyways

six flags in less than a day. im excited BUT not for the 96 degrees weather.ack!

 

so today im okay.

actually im HOT its so hot....you just know SUMMER is here. its about 80 degrees yet its 10:30ish pm at my casa. what a blast eh!???

tuesday is six flags :) i cannot wait.

 

can you!?

im up and i have to open tomorrow sighhhhhhhh i feel so sleepy and tired..its not even well forget it im just sleepy period.

i was on amazon.com all night just ordering stuff, i got a good hmmm 10 movies and the total came out to be 73.00 (12.00 was shipping) i got..The Great Raid, Match Point, Clockwork Orange ;) , crap i forgot now :( sigh...ummmmm Proof, also..geez i forgot.

 

you know what?

 

sleep time.

today i woke up at my sisters house, well i slept over since work is about 6 min away from there. ( BTW ) i hate hiccups.

im somewhat proud of myself.. i actually confronted someone for the first time being..when things are being said that are untrue. I actually liked it, being bold and just blunt. I like it a lot.

Early around 2am, the phone kept ringing at my sisters then all of a sudden my sister came out her room cursing at whomever was on the other side of the line. SHe placed the caller on speaker and she was just telling my sister off but my sister had NO IDEA on who the person was? what makes it creepy is that..my sisters bf came out and the lady on the other line was saying how she was pregnant and what not and telling my sister that her bf was her man and man my face was just LOST! the lady was crazy and making things up BUT...she did know my sisters name and she did call her 'sicko' it made me sad and angry because the way she said it was awful..and in spanish it sounds so bad. I know it mustve hurt my sister...i mean she is sick..she does have seizures a lot..so i dunno i think im getting overwhelmed with all the sickness going around with my family.

Joey made me think yesterday, i think a great reason why i have changed..is because of my family and especially my two sisters.

sigh

so tired!!!

ah so tired.

today is sat and its my day off! thank god!!!!! ive been worn out lately lol

i get to hang out with my mom today while my brother takes care of Sammy wally..

:P

 

i kinda miss someone.

SPEAKING of someone..

uggggggggh! i hate it when people say they are going to try and try or just do something to make hmm well the status of you and that person..much better and NOTHING happens! it pisses me off ugh.one thing ive....grown into is being a smartass when im mad or when i get frustrated. i wont be very nice..ppl....watch out!

so i worked.. for some long hours yesterday but i dont regret it, for some reason when im around the right people...the right staff..my mood is just okay and it was fun and im happy that i worked.

Fernando took me home ( we literally live blocks away) and i was sleep talking with him the ENTIRE time!!! i dont even recall...some conversations but i remember looking at the time it was around 4am and i asked him 'is the sun setting already!??' and he just laughed and i went back to sleep lol

today i have a deaaaaadly shift. 4-2am!! ackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk yeah thats all i can say ackkkkkkkkkkkk lol sigh..

hmmm well its almost my bday too and im not sure what im doing but i want to do something...

okay i should be taking a small nap but im not. whats going on with me!!

 

ciao

ugh

so today im tired. not sure why but i blame TATSU for it lol..yesterday had to be one of the best times at six flags yet. the people..the weather just everything . i loved it.

i also told Joey that i missed him it was funny cute because he was all confused but its okay at least i told him and thats that, we had another coordinator meeting this afternoon..and to be honest i really dont get the point of it? although well its the job now so whatever.

 

sigh im sleepy i will write more later.

im off saturday whipeeee

i completely forgot about this place..

 

its been MONTHS AND YEARS!?

 

so many things have changed... a lot of things have happened. Frankly..ive grown up.

yet again as i said on my last post..ive moved to myspace.

 

and another note, I tried telling Joey the other day that i just missed him, its weird because he and i just dont talk as friends...or we dont talk just as..work people, i think he and i just have that platonic relationship..but i want more, i want more friendship i want to be there for him and listen to his rants or worries, i just want it but WHY!?

 i dont know maybe because im that person to everyone now, im the person they rant and scream at and all i can do is smile and act..silly so they can laugh.

When i see him..i see something inside thats bugging him and i dont know why..

oh well

okay so i have not been updating at ALL! i have moved to myspace.. ive told you guys several times! anyways MANY things have happened.. james and i=toast since like months ago new friends = major +! school= up north..SAN RAFAEL HERE I COME! and.. tomorrow i go to six flags last year i didnt even make it:( email ME! indierkgrl@aol.com